A few observations on my current condition:
- A bald man who puts on a dark knitted cap and a dark sweatshirt looks like he's getting ready to pull off a heist.
- When people ask, "What can I do to help?" they are being very sweet, so saying, "Send money" is a bad joke.
- Hats, surprisingly, keep your head from getting cold. Who knew?
- People are surprised when you show up. Anywhere. Even if someone else drove.
- Taking three naps a day tends to cut into one's productivity a little. Just a little.
- You wonder seriously if it would be easier to be recover if we had a sane president.
- Food has acquired an unpleasant aftertaste. This has the counterintuitive effect of making one eat more to get rid of the taste (it doesn't work).
- My fingertips have a tingle to them that I'm assured will go away after treatment is over. But it's hard to make a D chord.
- My nose can't decide if it's dried out or running like Usain Bolt.
- You ask people not to say they're praying for you and some say, "I'm praying for you." What effect is that supposed to have?
- It's very hard to break the habit of washing your hair, even when you don't have any.
- Being tired and being sleepy are two different things.
- Writing is hard all the time. Chemotherapy doesn't really change that at all.
- People ask interesting questions about your hair falling out. Let's leave it at that.
- Everybody has a cancer story. Everybody. My dog probably knows someone who had cancer. Wait. He knows me.
- I don't hate doctors nearly as much as I used to.
- Nurses should be running the country. Assuming teachers are busy. Or librarians.
- I get sleepy reading. Which is a problem, because I'm revising my own work.
- Everyone wants to ask about how I'm doing, which is nice. Saying, "occasionally I get tired" doesn't seem satisfying. To them.
- People are surprised that I'm acting like myself. Who were they expecting: Eli Wallach?
Baseball season started yesterday and my team lost it first game. I don't care. I am beyond elated.